What is wrong with me am i normal?

Dude I'm so happy you chose to express your thoughts and feelings that took great courage. Please stop dwelling on suicide, this is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. What you're feeling is not uncommon with a lot of teens. You're going through many physical changes and this is partly why you're having some huge emotional conflicts. This will p and you will have a more positive outlook on your life. The reason why suicide is viewed a sin by Catholics is because human life is a very precious gift including your own. Just by reading this I know you have characteristics I really like. You're sensitive, you give a lot of thought to subjects, you're unselfish/caring. Dude I wish half the people I know were more like you. Please find a professional to talk to, get help, don't give up.