How would you handle this?

my ex and i have 2 kids uner tw0 years old...i got real insecure and paranoidand stuff the last year..sh go unattracted to me and now its been over for 3 months.......she isn't with anyone else and neither and i....i am havin a real hard time not having herin my life and am holdng on way to hard...driving her farther away......I'm going to see a shrink thisweek to see if its something deep seated.....i really love this woman and want to get back with her but she won't even talk..,,tells me gve her some time..(i call herway to much and if she hangs up i kepn calling....like a frickin littl kid i am right now it seems.....so whn i asked for her to come to the shrink and give him the honest truth from somone else mouth other thatn mine she says she think abut it and tells me its not her fault I'm not strong enough to deal with this...one minute she'll be mad and say that is it and she doesn't want me in her life and when i try and get her to finalize it she won't saying this is my last chance......( WHICH I KEEP BLOWING THAT WHY I'M GETTIN HELP).....does it sound like she's in love but not right now cause i need help?....maybe that is why she won't cut me out final and all?